23 February 2011

Are You A Memory or A Dream? I Seem To Conjure You From Both

Remembering things you wished you hadn't said or done in your past.

Cringing at the thought.

Cursing at the nothingness in your room.

Wishing you could erase or rewrite that entire chapter.

Realizing that it is not possible, not until that service in Eternal Sunshine is really available in real life.

Understanding that there's nothing else you can do about it except accepting that it happened and moving on, hoping it won't bite you in the ass again somewhere in the future.

Telling yourself that the experience had made you a better person in an attempt to soothe yourself somehow even if you are not sure of the entirety of truth behind it.

Repeating the whole cycle all over again once in a while.

Schon wieder?

4 comments:

Asma Azizan said...

jangan jera jangan... nnti aku start jugak

jera said...

jangan asmak asmak... sekejap ja aku ni, dh lupa dh pon hal yg trigger train of thought itu.

feemitidee said...

:)

oh I feel you. Tsk tsk. Dah la susah nak bertenang once I engaged in that kind of thought, haih.

jera said...

this cycle is pretty dangerous lah. such a pain in the ass kalau dh start teringat. sekali sekala takpala.

oh well. we all have our moments =)